“Sometimes walking away has nothing do with weakness,
and everything to do with strength.
We walk away not because we want
others to realize our worth and value,
but because we finally realize our own.”

~ Robert Tew

interesting quote... I'm staying put, because I realize my own worth... and it ain't worth much

Day 1

Well, the wife and I have taken the 1st step for our new lifestyle, the PC way of stating we're on a diet.  Under a doctor's care, Dr Bishop if you wanted to know.  Could be interesting.

Day 1 is a good start, coffee, just cream,  for me and tea, milk and NO SUGAR, for the wife, not a big change for me, but a huge one for her, she usually gets a large french vanilla cappuccino and if she does get tea dumps heaping spoonful’s of sugar....  and no doughnuts, yay us.

So the goal for me is to lose 94 lbs. (I had it in mind about 100) so the doctor and I are on the same page.

Low carb - high protein, 1700 calories a day is the plan....  stay tuned dear readers... not that I have any LOL...

Fixed the lawntractor, turns out it needed a battery. $60, not a bad fix. Decided to change the oil since it hadn't been done in a few years, now it does a funny knocking when it runs...

Finally got the pool repair guy out, gave us an estimate of $7900 to replace the liner and replace our broken down filter and pump and upgrade to a salt water system.

I called the bank to find out about a loan, after they stopped laughing, they said no to an unsecured loan because we declared bankruptcy in the last 5 yrs. 2 more years to go before I can say no.

I was looking over our mortgage statement, I noticed a clause that states as a condition of the mortgage, we must maintain full replacement value insurance on the house... what a joke that is... last time I inquired about insurance, they wanted over $300/mo, the fucking crooks, only because I was late twice with the payment... they consider that a "non-payment". insurance is nothing but a scam anyway, *if* you make a claim, they jack up the premiums and you end up paying more in the long run than if you'd kept your mouth shut...

Anyway, I put in an application for a loan with the local knee-breakers, they promised and instant decision with the online application, all I got was a thanks for applying, your application has been forwarded to a local branch to be reviewed and a rep will get in touch with you in 1 to 2 business days.... that's french for "you suck"

Van is in my garage on jack stands, trying to replace the brake lines. got that done after 2 weeks of fucking around under it. I had borrowed a flaring tool for free from the local parts guy, they gave me a bubble-flare tool when I needed a double-flare tool, yes, there is a difference. Finally got it replaced, but can't get the bleeder screw off the caliper, so it needs to be replaced. Having fun trying to find the right tools to do that... once I get that figured out, then we'll see if it'll pass e-test...

and my boy still shits his pants... will be 8 in june...

Boy

my son is 7yrs old... he still shits his pants on a regualr basis. Bright side, he doesn't wet the bed, light fires, or torture animals...

Lost the electricity to the post where the pool pump is plugged in... no big deal, we still haven't figured out the leak yet. Good news is that the water seems to have stabilized, about 4 feet below deck...

Van: discovered a puddle last month, had now idea what the stuff that was leaking, it was clear and smelled of rubber... I think it's coolant, but it leaks about half way down the chassis. I took it out to deliver some stuff to our oldest in Peterborough (starting school without financing secured and not a penny to his name, partied it up all summer, that's another post in itself). anyway, the van's engine temp gauge was in the red most of the way there and back... took it out again this past week, for a short run, and it was still overheating... yup, guess it was coolant...

went out a few minutes ago mow our lawn, and guess what... our lawn tractor won't start.. I'm no mechanic... it cranks, somewhat, but used to start right up, now it don't..

It never ends...

There's been a rash of accidents involving cyclists lately, I think I'm going to take out my bike and see how it's running...

Sick.... again...

Day 4 of coughing.. sure hope I don't develop pneumonia, had it for4 weeks over Christmas. Took 2 rounds of heavy guns antibiotics that time too.

now that we're back to work, we aren't home to run the hose to keep the water level up in the pool. Took a couple of days for it lower below the skimmer... definitely a leak, swimming is over for the season, and possibly for good.

*sigh*

and the beat goes on...

not much has changed since my last update..

there was a teat in the pool liner, must of happened with the wonky winter we had, freezing thawing all winter long... stressed the liner around one of the return jets and it ripped. Cost $400 to fix it and had to drain the pool well bellow the tear to be fixed. Cost almost a grand to fill it back up... at a time when we didn't have much money. AND we suspect a leak in the pool as the water level drops about an inch a day, have to run the garden hose pretty much all the time (45 min on, 20 min off) putting a strain on our old water pump (not too mention risking drying up our well, good thing we're on a high watertable)

The tree behind our garage died a few years ago and needs to come down, another grand or rish my life to bring it down myself... latter will win as we have no money...

and the electricity went in the garage last fall, still can't fix it, I'm no electrician.

The wife is spending money like there's no tomorrow.. charging it to her work credit card... hope she doesn't get caught... people were dismissed for doing the same... and making commitments that we can't afford either... then turning around and bitching about being poor all the time, no frigging kidding...

life goes on... we still have food and rood over our heads (not insured of course) and a decent car to drive (only because we took on a hefty loan to pay for it). We picked it up from one of those "we finance anybody" places...